Moving on...

University orientation started...
I in the meanwhile, still trying to get my ass back to UPM...
If I got a course in UPM, I would have started my course already...
Too bad... People do things differently...
Still can't figure out why BRAINS in UPU put me to such a complicated course in Kelantan but wouldn't want to give me a freaking easy course in UPM...
Pei Ying got UPM as well, and I envy her...(even though it's a NOT-SO-GOOD course)

People don't understand why I don't want to go that far...
At the same time,
I don't understand why people get so excited about going far...
I don't understand why people would let things go so easily...
I don't understand why people never think how would they feel after a feel months abroad...
Maybe it's just the family
The family gives them EVERYTHING...
At least they have moral support...
And they have nothing to worry about...
They wouldn't need to fight/work for something...
And that something just drop down to them...
That's all the difference, nothing else...
I came from a bad background...
I've fought for everything...
How could I let go?

Ask me the reasons I wouldn't go that far, precisely 'THERE', KELANTAN
And I'll give you a dozen...
Who worries about living? I'm all independent since 2007
I worry about my girl
I worry about money
I worry about my family
I worry about time
I worry about my progress there
I worry too much...

And how could I let go of my current job in MY FM?
Remembered how hard I worked to prepare my resume for the interview?
It's something I had been persue-ing since the end of Form 3
And I'm doing good...
I learnt a lot...
I earned a bit...
I traveled the whole Malaysia... in 6 months!!!
Wouldn't there be more?
And I hope to progress further in the company... (thanks to Isaac's dream)

My father kept giving naggings/scoldings all week long...
He just nag nag nag and nag
Without understanding the situation...
The PTPTN cheque arrived, when I was in Ipoh...
I didn't know what to do...It feels pathetic...
I feel LOST...
Anyway, still I have plans going out...
Let's see if it worked out nicely...

"We have dreams to live, don't we?"

~kimfoo~